I realized the other day that I no longer scan the news headlines daily. I’m no longer concerned with keeping up with current events. In fact, I’m strikingly disinterested in the news now, which is a pretty big change from even a couple of months ago.

I took a step back, and acknowledged that almost all the news was bad, globally, nationally, and locally. Since that’s nothing new, I had to realize that something was different with me. I was increasingly worried. Like, really worried. Worried if I’ll have enough money to retire, wondering what happens if I lose my job, what happens if my 401k keeps dropping, what do I do if are we headed into a recession? Does it turn into a depression? And what does that mean for me and my family? In short, I had to admit that the world had me entirely focused on…..the world.

I don’t mean to downplay our responsibilities to be good stewards of what God has given us, or to ignore my duties to be fiscally responsible and use the judgement skills God has given me. It’s more that I realized I had lost my today in my fear of tomorrow.

Instead of focusing my day on the Kingdom, I was focused on my kingdom, and to me, my kingdom is financial. My financial security was (is) my safety net. I was drowning in fear of what could be, might be, what could happen to my financial security. To the point that my today was simply full of fear. Fear of loss, fear of tomorrow.

Every once in a while, I come to a startling epiphany of the obvious. Like tomorrow never comes. And sometimes those epiphanies come with scripture, in this case, Mathew 6:25-34 where the Lord tells us (me actually), that today has all I can handle. And that I should be focused on seeking the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. Then Christ adds the little kicker at the end, “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”

So, today, I’m working to choose to focus on the Kingdom and His righteousness. My focus on today means less worry, and more intentionality. Less fear, more prayer. Less stress, more gratitude. Less my kingdom, more His Kingdom. I choose to put my faith into action, trusting that by putting my focus on today, tomorrow will take care of itself.

I don’t want to lose any more todays in fear of tomorrow. Grace and peace.